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[flurry_of_beaus]

INBOX text / audio / video / action I feel bad. I've treated people like shit my whole life. And . . . I don't know. Having one transformative moment doesn't mean that you're immediately going to be a different person overnight and being better is something you have to work at, I guess. art credit code credit

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[disasterartist]

I'm sorry, Beau.

[Jester knows they are, really. This happened with Molly and Fjord, it happened with Imoen and Juniper. It just happened to Neria. It just happened to Noah. It keeps happening to her and to people she cares about. It sucks.]

I'm sorry it was him ["Him". Caleb. She means Caleb.] and not--

[Her. Because she and Beau aren't really talking and she messed things up and they're still friends - they're still friends.... - but probably it would be better if Caleb were still here and she wasn't.

Her voice is small now, as well as shakey. She doesn't want to finish her sentence but she hopes Beau....gets what she means.]

[flurry_of_beaus]

[ It takes her a second. It takes her a long second to parse that inflection in Jester's words. She picks up on the fact that there's a secondary meaning immediately. But the idea that Jester would ever think that Caleb's more important to Beau than Jester (that any member of the Nein is more important to her than another), is a terrible, no good thing. It makes her withdraw, flinch back with a wounded look on her features that she cannot control. ]

Jester...

[ Has she done this? Made her friend doubt her? Of course. Of course she has. Because Beau hasn't been a good friend to Jester, ghosting on her and keeping her distance.

This is all Beau's fault. ]

No. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Jester, and you've got nothing to apologize for.