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[flurry_of_beaus]

INBOX text / audio / video / action I feel bad. I've treated people like shit my whole life. And . . . I don't know. Having one transformative moment doesn't mean that you're immediately going to be a different person overnight and being better is something you have to work at, I guess. art credit code credit

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[dunemantic]

That's surprising.

And of course I'm not going to tell her.
I don't actually care very much.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

Perhaps you made a mistake, adults are capable of them as well. I don't know all the circumstances but you have obviously seen that it was a mistake. It still does not establish any pattern of behaviour that can't be changed. Have you avoided getting another girlfriend since then?

How likely would you be to do something differently if a similar situation presented itself?

[flurry_of_beaus]

You're a real pal, Essek.

I mean that sarcastically. About the not caring.

Anyway, I don't know. If it's that surprising, maybe I need to fix some things.

[flurry_of_beaus]

I mean, it hasn't exactly happened. I know two girls, but neither of them could be my girlfriend because I travel too much. It wouldn't be fair.

But there's someone here and I've definitely been avoiding them and fuck these things that make me tell the truth.

I would definitely do something differently. Probably something stupid.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

Look, you're already regretting a moment in your past because of something you didn't do. So maybe go see this person you're avoiding and do something stupid?

It might not go perfectly but you can at least say you tried something

[flurry_of_beaus]

She doesn't feel that way about me and even if she did, trying something is what gets me in trouble half the time. Maybe even most of the time. I can't risk losing her friendship just because I'm selfish and want more.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

You've talked with her about this before then?

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[disasterartist]

[So Jester has mostly been pretending like she doesn't....care that she barely sees Beau. It's fine, whatever, she has friends.

Except then one day two of them are NOT THERE ANYMORE Probably.]

essek and caleb are gone
i think
i sent them messages and then i tried to do sending when they didn't answer and it just

didn't work

[flurry_of_beaus]

No. I would never.

[flurry_of_beaus]

[ Yup, pretending's good. Pretending is great. Beau figures that if anything important happens, she'll find out. It's not as if she's stopped paying attention to them; she's just been avoiding them. Spying on your friends rather than talking to them about their days is totally normal.

Which means she's completely taken by surprised by Jester's text. ]

that's not possible

[ It completely is. ]

have you gone to theirs yet?

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

How do you know she doesn't feel that way about you then?

[disasterartist]

people disappear all the time
one of my friend's boyfriends just did


i haven't yet
i mean it's probably locked but we could still get in

[She's saying we because she expects Beau to come check it out with her. She's not even asking.]

[flurry_of_beaus]

Because APPARENTLY it's pretty obvious that I feel something for her and she hasn't said anything

and the one time she did say she cared about me as more than just a friend, she was lying to get that sickness stuff to go away.

[flurry_of_beaus]

[ Not what she wants to hear right now, Jester. And with tone lacking in text, especially for someone like Beau, it sounds a lot like Jester's telling her to calm down, this happens, get over it. ]

I can get in

[ One way or another, that is. ]

Meet me there.

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[disasterartist]

yeah i'll be there

[It doesn't take Jester long to get there, so she just...waits outside the door to Essek's place. Her tail swishes behind her anxiously while she does.]

[flurry_of_beaus]

[ Beau doesn't waste time. She doesn't bother even really acknowledging Jester as she strides right up to Essek's place and pounds her fist on the door. ]

Essek!! CALEB, YOU SMELLY GINGER MADMAN!!

[ She tries the door which of course is locked. So she slams her shoulder into it this time. ]

You got thieves tools? [ Not that she'd know how to use them proficiently, but she's seen Nott work. ]

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

You'd be surprised how oblivious people can be about these things and who says she has to say anything? Maybe she's waiting for you.

Although she might just be more than a little cruel if she did that.

What sickness are you referring to?

[disasterartist]

[Hello to you too, Beau. Jester watches Beau pound on the door, her arms folded across her chest. But when she actually asks her a question...]

I mean, no, but I can use Dimension Door to get us in.

[flurry_of_beaus]

doubtful. she doesn't wait for anyone.

in a good way. that comes out wrong.

the one where i was CRAZY possessive and feverish and shit.

[flurry_of_beaus]

Oh. Right.

[ That's probably a better answer than breaking down the front door, or any of the doors. But Beau kind of wants to take her aggression fear out on something and those were the best candidates.

But sure, Jester, we'll do it your polite way. ]

Would you please, uh... [ She jerks her head back towards the building. ]

[disasterartist]

Yeah. Sure. Gimme a sec.

[She has to actually be touching Beau, though, so Jester steps close enough to do that. The spell doesn't take much prep, so Jester just....touches the tips of her fingers to Beau's arm and then says the words she needs.

And then they're in the apartment! The very quiet apartment.

Jester drops her hand, like, immediately once they're in.]

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

I understood, it wouldn't be in her personality not to say something if she knew. Which sort of implies that she doesn't know?

Oh. That may explain something that I had presumed was just a general sickness.

[flurry_of_beaus]

[ Beau totally doesn't notice that hand drop except in the way that she totally does but prefers to focus on the whereabouts of two wayward wizards. So she stomps through the rooms first, just to make sure they're not hiding anywhere in plain sight, then starts to look more closely. ]

Footprints, broken furniture, signs of a struggle. Do you see anything?

[flurry_of_beaus]

Yeah, that's what I thought. But a friend says it's obvious and... well, he's really perceptive but still. OBVIOUS was the word.

Yeah, I thought I was just sick too but looking back on it I was... way out of line.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

As I said, somethings are very obvious when it doesn't involve yourself. People can be very blind sometimes. Have you not had someone who didn't notice something right under their nose?

And you said you got better because she told you she loved you?